Wondering What It Is


Lately I’ve been really stressed because besides taking and prioritizing all the responsibilities at school and at home, I don’t feel sort of excitement or better than I used before. I eat well, I write here on my blog regularly, I do things that I really love, I have friends and kicking out… you know all the things that usually a teen perk up. But this recently has been far from before. It’s not been a normal life. It’s not been much of anything really, just time passing. And this concerns me a lot.

I wonder if I crept into new projects or quite possibly reorganize stuffs on my list. I think it’s really my heart and soul that needs a “long” pause right now. I’m all burnt out… I’m still not enticed up and lacking of motivation. I need new experiences to gain thoughts, new sounds to hear, a vacation away from home, things to capture with my eyes and most of all, I need to feel the warmth and feel alive again because this drives me into the dimension I don’t belong in ways I cannot begin to describe or to enjoy. I do feel like there has to be something more for myself—that I need to identify what it is and somehow go for it, embrace it, and finally feel like that space has been filled.

Maybe I just didn’t know that there is something I really missed for months but suddenly I do and I don’t know where this solitary feeling come from. Or perhaps I’ve been going through it for months and used my workaholic image to mask it and now that I’ve paused a bit, I have had enough quiet in my life to hear that little empty space that I had no clue ever popped. Perhaps in some ways when we work hard and try to show our versatility and continue to aim our aspirations in life is how we avoid thinking about the true essence of reality and forget the priorities we have to focus on.

But the question is, how will I get started? This is what I will explore in the next chapter of my life. I am thinking more and more lately about the importance of being happy. That how you are going to be really happy in your heart, your soul, and with yourself and well, just honestly happy. It is true that time heals wounds. It will absolutely come at the right time. And now I think this is the right time, I am ready to face whatever this empty spot is and finally heal it. I’m ready.

Though I quite often write updates about the things I do here on my blog, I now learned to spill out something personal. This may show that this is a place of pretty things and inspiration. I thought it can be quite more inspirational to do this from time to time and read about how others feel because we can sometimes relate to those feelings and gain some strength from it, what do you guys think? I feel zero regret publishing this post because I know this is a safe place. You’re my friends and I cherish how I have your friendship. Maybe some of you need to hear this, feel the same, and perhaps now you can share bits of your life that perhaps you share with me in the comments section. Encouragement and support would be nice!


You Can Just Have One

Having looked back in the old days, my mum had photo albums to document the entire memento that take place over the years passed (from my first birthday to my elementary graduation). Though times are more high tech now and there are dozens of ways to documenting and sharing photos—through Facebook and Instagram, for example—having such hard copies of those “good” photos taken with your “good” camera preserved in a photo album still remains the best way, isn’t it?

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There are a few great sites where you can make books, but I recently encountered one called Artifact Uprising. You’ll surely love their cloth covers and how high-quality your photos look on the recycled papers. All you have to do is narrow down your photos you had taken over the course of the year (you can use a mix of Instagram photos, photos you shot with your good camera, and those taken by your friends and family) and, when the end of year came, it is so fun and much easier to look back at how your year went through. Who wouldn’t love to see photos in a 1000-page book and where you can hand down it from that shelf, don’t you?

How do you guys do preserving your photos? Curious about the system or method you used and can’t wait to hear it in the comments below! :)

Happy Friday + Best Outtakes

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Happy Friday to you, guys! I wake up this morning thinking, “I wish it is Friday….” And to my delight, it is! Ohhh, it’s time to get off at school today. I really enjoyed the atmosphere with classmates and friends in school these days where we were chatting and laughing from our seats, walking around the whole campus, eating and drinking, and of course, taking photos as it was usual every day. Each subject turns out easy as days flip into new. And the icing on the cake is that, there are 30 more days left before the most-awaited day of our graduation approach! I felt a little bit excited as well as nervous too for that day. It is like a boa eating me up! I can’t help myself. Funny, I’m that excited.

I had so much fun this week. I’ll be heading a bunch of queued work ahead of me between Monday and the rest days of the coming week so I plan to be lazy this weekend and constantly focus on doing nothing but watching movies, reading books, and playing games on my laptop in bed since I know that I have to get my energy up before the new week begins.